Maybe I have to hate photography to then be able to love it again.
I give up too easily.  With everything.

I feel like I have fallen out of love with my passion for photography.
I still love it - but my inspiration for it has faded.
Maybe it's just time for me to explore ceramics more - since I have many ideas for that.
But I want to be able to continue taking photos and making films.
I hope this is only a hiatus.

I've always wanted birthmarks...

This was my second summer helping a friend in her garden, and this was also the summer of many misfortunes.
In July, I came in contact with a plant known as Poison Parsnip.  This plant will give you second degree burns.  They left scars on my arms, but I thought they were healing beautifully.

California

I visited my aunt in California in early August.

Film photos to come…

reminiscing

Photos from the summer of 2012
Inspires me for summer '13.

Ceramics II

Yesterday was our last ceramics class!  I'm sad it's over because I loved that class, and would have also liked to just have several more weeks where I could continue working.  Critique went well, and it helped me think more about my idea for senior seminar.

My snail in open house, in the main gallery

My deer.  At first I wanted to not have any glaze/paint on him, so I could project some sort of scene, picture of video, like a meadow and etc.  But then I decided I wanted to use him for my senior project, and glazed him accordingly.  I still need to add gold colored paint to the broken parts and that includes where the antlers will go because I've decided not to attach them.

 Here is a crappy photo of everything I made this semester.

For the most part I'm quite content with everything I made.  I do wish sometimes that I made other things instead, but hopefully I'll be able to make everything I want.
I hope that I get to make a lot of new pieces this summer!

Sculpture Show

From February 4 -15th, my school a sculpture show of student work.  One of my ceramic pieces, Canyon, were selected to be on display.  This is a raku piece that was inspired by the Grand Canyon.

This is a picture from the show

Image of each side

Update

Recently, I have come to a conclusion.  I'm interested in exploring the comparability between sleep and death.  Sleep is an imperfect fulfillment of death, nature's prophecy of the future death.  I think I will continue in this direction, and it will be my focus for my senior thesis.

 My first project in ceramics class; a snail, with lots of foliage and other plant-like forms that grew out/on the snail's shell.  I wanted to completely cover the shell, but ran out of time.

Our 2nd project was about expanding out idea from the 1st project.  Since I want to further investigate the relation ships between sleep and death I'm making a sleeping deer, and on it's antlers there will be all the plants growing off of them.  

For now, this as far as I've gotten, I will make another post, once I'm finished.

In my glass class, we are making 3D objects, and I decided to make a sleeping bunny.  Which kinda could almost look like a dead bunny.....

When we were making the mold, and we splattered some plaster over it, it looked really beautiful to me. It feels very quiet and almost surreal.

Death & Sleep

Studi Photo Final

For my photo final, I choose to take panoramic pictures of people's bedrooms (basically).  I printed each one out on 11x14 enhanced matte paper.  I think I would like to see them on even large sized papers!
I would love to finish this project by taking many, many, many more pictures of people in their bedrooms.   I may want to think about this project for my senior seminar project...but I could broaden the idea more, or think differently about bedrooms...well I'll start thinking and writing down every idea.

Final Evaluation

Just finished my 1st semester as a junior!  My evaluation was with Ethan Berry, Matt Murphy, Diane Ayott, and Thorpe Fiedt.  It went really well, and I recorded it with my computer, so here are some stills (not that it really means anything)

TA-DA!

Now I just need to start thinking about Senior Seminar!! 

Another video I made
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Here is a glimpse at my final for studio photo class....I'm taking photos of people and their bedrooms....I started with myself first.

I actually enjoyed my photos I took in studio photo class.

L U C I D

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This is a video I made in my audio and video class.  First we had a project where we only made the audio, and then we had to put to it.
This video was inspired by my recent dreams.

(I wish I was able to upload it right onto the blog, but it was having problems)

Textures & Compositions

I didn't quite understand the assignment I had in my studio photo class, but I got some pictures I liked when I was searching for backgrounds to use in photoshop.

Barnacles

I sliced my foot on barnacles sunday night.  The lesson I learned was to not walk into the water at low tide, when you are drunk.  It was also dark out and I just did not see the giant rock that was covered in barnacles.  It hurts.  And it's difficult to walk.  My friends laughed at me and said I looked like a 70 year old woman.  I feel broken.  Although, it seems to be healing quickly, because I was able to pretty much walk normal, through the pain.

new home

My roommate is finally living in the apartment with me.  She had been traveling all summer.  I waited for her to get back to start decorating and what not...And I really love our living room.  It has a lot of windows, so natural light can come through, and it keeps it very airy.  The sheer curtains are wonderful too.  So when I had a few moments alone in the house, I took a few shots.

Lately, I've felt extremely more connected to my spirit.  I'm learning more about my spiritual path, and the earth's.  Right now it is the main thoughts in my mind and I think it is coming across in my art a lot.
I stopped by this nature park, The Great Swamp, in Morris County, New Jersey.  I felt really inspired to take self-portraits, there is something very therapeutic about going out into the nature, all alone.  It was very beautiful there, I loved the patches of light that came through the canopy of tress, yet I felt I was having trouble showing it in my photos.  I noticed though, that all my poses I felt like doing came across as spiritual or divine in some way.  I kept wanting to look up, to the sky, and the sun...I wanted to do yoga poses, yet at the same time that was not the direction I wanted to go in.. But maybe because I was in such a beautiful and very earthly place, that was just the connection and energy that I was receiving.

Then...I saw a raccoon, and I hear it's bad to see them in the day time.  But he was so cute, and didn't look like he had rabies?

Mirrors

I went through a lot of my older photographs, and had a lot of fun making them look very trippy and interesting to look at.  I love how the black and white versions can really leave it all to your imagination.  Some may even alter you're perspective.